May and June are always hard months for me.
8 years ago this month, my little boy Ian was born. He died two days later from brain damage suffered during my pregnancy. I’ve changed a lot since then.
And every year, without fail, I have trouble keeping up with the duties in my business in the weeks leading up to his birthday. Blogging, client work, you name it. Sure, I do it – at least the most important stuff. But the joy isn’t there.
Yeah, it’s been a few weeks since I had a post up. It bothers me, but I just haven’t been in the right frame of mind to come up with new topics.
Last year, I even had a migraine over his birthday – my first one ever. It happened to start in earnest about the time my labor started, and finally eased up about 24 hours later, just after his time of birth.
Coincidence? I doubt it.
The point of this post isn’t to have you feel sorry for me. This is my life, and I accept it. The easy bits, the hard bits, and all the bits in between.
But it’s occurred to me that hey, this is predictable. This happens Every. Year. So maybe I should plan for it a bit better next year.
For instance, write up a bunch of blog content to schedule over May & June, so that I don’t keep putting off writing a new post when hard times come around. Maybe even get a few guest posts.
Struggling? You’re not alone.
My point? If you know there’s a certain time of year that you always struggle, don’t fight it. Plan for it. Get some stuff done ahead of time so you have less to stress about while you’re struggling. Outsource something. Drop something off your to-do list that isn’t urgent.
And stop beating yourself up for struggling. We all go through hard times. And you do what you gotta to get through them.
The joy will come back – it always does. It’ll just take a while, and that’s ok.